Dear A- Love, S

allovenolies:

loveletterstomyexwife:

What’s wrong honey pie? What’s this secret/secrets business… :(

I have this stinky paranoid delusion that one of my roommates is dating my ex.

At least I hope it’s a paranoid delusion. There are a lot of coincidences and it’s making me anxious because they’re both dating secret boy/girlfriends (since the same time-frame) and WHY CAN’T I KNOW LIKE A NORMAL NOSY PERSON.

THAT’S SO WEIRD AND AWKWARD I’m so sorry…=/ plus the tumblr loviedovieness must be supes uncomfortable…at least you have super amazing bf in seattle now!!!

What’s wrong honey pie? What’s this secret/secrets business… :(

Spring break

I’m gonna be in Arizona for most of spring break starting the 23rd =(.  I’ll text you when I get back to Beaverton though?  I’m so glad to hear about you and Colin!!!!!!!  I totally get that you feel weird about wanting to marry him and all that I could not see myself marrying ex-boyfriend AT ALL but now with Robert I’m basically scrawling Mrs. Sarah Ellertson in the margins of all my notebooks.  Don’t worry, I think it’s normal, it just means that you’re an awesome relationship!

I love you!  Enjoy your spring break =)

allovenolies:

One for you Sarah Fine!
You go sarah fine!

I just had a mini panic attack!! <3 <3 <3

allovenolies:

One for you Sarah Fine!

You go sarah fine!

I just had a mini panic attack!! <3 <3 <3

That’s the worst thing I’ve ever heard.  I cannot believe he did that to you.  He’s garbage and you need to cut him off.  He does not deserve to still be your friend.

Yeah I saw that WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HIM

But own it, bitch.

allovenolies:

An explanation of thursday:

- WJ was an entitled ass. C and I laughed about it.

- WG sent me a really awkward thanksgiving text about being grateful for me and how I am BBG’s pack and it was nice but weird.

- The Canadian kept texting me updates about his first American thanksgiving. It was adorable actually, but also situationally overwhelming. 

The plot thickens:

-WG DID USE MY POEM TO WRITE A SONG and when I confronted him he apologized but was like, “I didn’t know, how could I know that it would be a big deal” and I was like, FUCK YOU IT’S A POEM I WROTE AND IT WASN’T EVEN ABOUT YOU I mean of course it’s personal. And then he had a giant meltdown and started telling me how much he still loves me and how he’s so afraid of losing me and I just had to end it by saying “I’m not the one you can dump on anymore and I want to be your friend but you need to get your act together first.”

- DF tried to hit on me a lot for the first 15 minutes of last night until he realized I was clearly there with his ex-best friend and then he reversed and it was all good except I’m tired of all these terrible and invasive attempts to pick me up that are somehow excused when I’m just a human being sitting there but somehow as soon as they know I’m with another guy they apologize for it like the only reason it was tacky to start out with was that they were infringing on his property. As though it wasn’t totally inappropriate to begin with. Which it was. Poor taste, I mean. HI. NOT MEAT HERE. NOT PERSONAL PROPERTY. geezlouise.

- Speaking of C, his ex was at the party last night but it ended up being ok (with him and I, I mean. I think it was bad for her) but I did feel bad. I just never got to know her before, I think she was afraid of me or something because I always got weird vibes, and last night I just didn’t even know what to say. So I just did my best to not get in her face, and it’s not like I was all over him we were just holding hands so really it could have been much more dramatic.

- I love you do you want to hang out with me tonight? The fam is having game night so I’m inviting you, or we could hang out afterward I think I’m going to Mitchell’s.

I would LOVE family C game night, just as long as it’s post family F dinner.  I want to see Mitchell too so yay yay yay!  Damn girl.  So many dudes want to tap that ass.

allovenolies:

Stop texting me and talking to me on the interwebs I am not interested in you and I don’t want to have to outright reject you so just go home to your cave where you’ve been living the last weeks/months ok bye

I just want to start all the way over. I like where I am and it feels good. No more going backwards.

Who else besides WJ?

An anonymous tumblr message to me:

Not only do I love your blog ( heh found it ) but I also am secretly infatuated with you. K. here we go I got this idea from a spam msg I received on Facebook lol.. I know you like me but were always way too shy to say so :3 go hit up crushmasher(dót)com (uhh it wont let me do a regular link) then make an acct there. Search for the profile ‘justmeandu33’ ( obv me ) I posted body pix.. if u can figure out who I am msg me and we’ll kick it. CC required for age but it is free. (annoying i know)

WTF??

You know you aren’t like 4 years ago him.  You don’t need to do anything to prove him wrong because you already have.  He’s trying to make it easier on himself by blocking himself off emotionally, which is just immature.  I’m glad for your sake that you see what’s really going on here and are protecting yourself.  You are going to be just fine, but you already know that.

Love,

S